The Well-Being of Limitations

In the beginning of feeling extremely sick(not being able to hold my own weight up, gripping items with extreme difficulty, unable to process simple words/sentences) the worst part for me was realizing I had limitations.

Previously, I had done everything without thinking twice, carrying all the things, physically and emotionally.(That's a whole other discussion)

Having limitations due to none functioning body parts was a death sentence. Unable to will my body to do the "normal" things was a devastating blow to my whole center. Walking, dancing (something I love deeply), even holding may favorite coffee mug were impossible at that point. Holding my own head up was exhausting to put it as simple as possible.

Over the years I have put in alot of work teaching myself that it's not only okay to have limitations but, necessary. In all actuality limiting myself is caring for me in more ways than I could ever fathom.

On occasion I would see other people doing CrossFit or even yoga and feel the overwhelming rush of envy, since simply vacuuming one room would put me down for days at a time. On a daily basis I would have to(still do)have an internal dialogue to remind me there is no competition with myself or others, yet to simply do better everyday mentally and physically.

I've found on this journey that finding one small thing that my body is capable of, to do it everyday (if my body allows) then rest as much as I possibly can.

Recently, I started doing aquatic therapy, while some might perceive this as something only older people do I see it as an opportunity to build my body back at the pace I can handle. I'm getting exercise while still knowing my body's limitations as well as building my stamina and muscles again.

I may never be able to teach a dance class or even jog around the park but, I will try to take care of me the best way I know how. I'm good(after continuing hard conversations)with knowing that as long as I listen to my body it will hopefully listen to me.

As a disclaimer, I am in no way taking away from someone's pain or strife while living this life of tremendous difficulty, I am simply reminding everyone that finding the outlets that your body can handle and will help to build the things you need to build is a form of self love.

I don't know about you but, my body needs more love than it ever did before!

Until next time,

Be good to each other but, most importantly be good to yourself.